Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Cheap dreams

I'm watching a dvd lecture by Donald Nathanson (trailer) and he quotes this poem in its entirety. It struck me. Just as feeling 'at home' starts with yourself, so does beating shame and a general nagging feeling of ineligibility. I suppose that will be phase two.
Here's an extract.


Shame

This is the shame of the woman whose hand hides
her smile because her teeth are so bad, not the grand
self-hate that leads some to razors or pills
or swan dives off beautiful bridges however
tragic that is.  This is the shame of seeing yourself.
...This is the shame of being ashamed,
the self-disgust of the cheap wine drunk, the lassitude
that makes junk accumulate, the shame that tells
you there is another way to live but you are
too dumb to find it.  This is the real shame, the damned
shame, the crying shame, the shame that's criminal,
the shame of knowing words like glory are not
in your vocabulary though they litter the Bibles
you're still paying for...
the unholy shame of dreaming of a new house and car
and the shame of knowing how cheap such dreams are.
 
~ Vern Rutsala

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